My greatest accomplishments are my girls. I am mindful of every decision I make for myself and their well being. I didn’t have much control during my high risk pregnancy or in the first few months of their lives as preemies in the NICU; those memories fuel me to be hands on in every aspect of their lives. Nutrition is a major part of that. I have not decided whether or not I am going to raise them fully vegan but I have started them off on a non dairy heavy fruit and veggie diet. I choose fresh or homemade as much as my time and energy allows. Lord knows my eating habits can be questionable. Trying to juggle a full time job and mothering twins while transitioning to a vegan diet is tiresome. I no longer buy meat for myself and I don’t have much processed food in the house so it’s either cook real meals or eat cereal lol. My grandmother has been a big help in meal prepping for the girls, but she doesn’t really get the idea of eating vegan. ” They need protein from meat, a vegetable, and a starch in every meal!” Those are her words every time she cooks and brings me containers full of ham, mashed potatoes, chicken all the grandma favorites. I have all this food but don’t really want the girls to eat it BUT it will make my daily routines and my wallet stress free. What would you do in a situation like that? I tend to sink to these low points where I feel like a failure if I cant stay on routine, or if I’m not feeding the girls as healthy as I can because I’m not prepared for the day. As I self reflect I realize that doesn’t make me a bad mother. I am not a hypocrite for trying to live a plant based lifestyle with cheat days here and there. It makes me Human. I just turned 26 and my new motto is “I’m not perfect nor do I strive to be” I will never be perfect with the many hats that I wear. What I WILL do is push through the exhaustion and try my best. In regards to my girls, as long as I’m not putting them in immediate danger I won’t beat myself up over certain things. My decisions with food and other aspects of their well being will be intentional. Will they always be aligned with my standard of living? No, but if I need to sacrifice in order to take 10 steps forward I will happily take a step back.
Because everyday can be wonderful.